man oh man i have so much to share.


i started chaLEAN EXTREME three days ago. the cooler, leaner, less insane version of p90x. i am pretty sure it is going to mark an entirely new chapter in my life. i'm doing the workout with ricky and matthew. my favorites. and them being there helps me know that this program may actually work.
because i'm not alone.
last time i tried to lose weight, i was successful for a month and lost five pounds. which was great. but i had no one to share my pains with, or my temptations, or even my joys of working out. people would tell me it was really cool what i was doing, but that was it. they didnt really get it.
but now the three of us are in this together. working hard. pushing ourselves. stretching and growing. i think it's beautiful.
along with the workout, we have vowed to eat healthy for these 90 days. which will be the foundation of our healthier lifestyles. it is going to be tough, no doubt. but right now i am genuinely excited. matt and i went shopping at Henry's Fresh Food Market. it was so cool! we bought lots of delicious vegetables and chocolate soy milk and chicken to cook. so far, it has all tasted amazing. and the best part is that i feel good.
that is all i will say about the workout for now, but i promise to keep you posted. i'll be too excited not to share results.


i am so looking forward to Big Sur for summer camp. i've been there once before a couple years ago for an hour or so, and it was breath-taking. and this time i get to share with a ton of beautiful students that want to learn more about God. freakin rad. i am praying for guidance and an open mind and an even more open heart. everyday i'm realizing more and more how important my job is as a youth leader. i have their spiritual lives in my hands, and i really REALLY don't want to let them down. or let God down. that would suck.

which also leads me to share that i'm falling deeper in love with God everytime i breathe. He is in everything that i do and say and look at and watch and it just freaks me out how awesome He is. i've been listening to the Fish radio station a lot lately. which i previously have secretly judged. but it turns out that it's really rad. you get to sing about how great God is while you're driving. two things i am a huge fan of! i don't like every song that they play and some don't speak to me at all (a lot like country radio stations). but the ones that i do enjoy, they really hit me. they speak to me. and i'm not even at church. or youth group. i'm just alone. praising God. in my car. yes.

"Constantly practice the habit of inwardly gazing upon God. You know that something inside your heart sees God. Even when you are compelled to withdraw your conscious attention in order to engage in earthly affairs, there is within you a secret communion always going on."
-A.W. Tozer
i'm coming to find he was a brilliant man.