i think being indecisive is the absolute worst feeling to have.
ever.
i'll probably feel different later on in my life.
but right now, the absolute worst feeling i have is indecisiveness.
it makes me want to scream.
LOUD.
and the saddest part about feeling indecisive is that you are taking God's job from Him. you are telling him, HEY! Lord! Creator of the universe! I don't trust you, so i'm going to try and decide everything in my life on my own, and inevitably fail miserably.
what is that? i don't know.
but even in all of this, i have hope.
i have hope that i am going to learn from feeling this way.
and i have faith that God is working in my life.
slowly but surely, i will find the right path and move forward.
i may feel indecisive and totally lost, but my faith burns bright inside me.
and that part is pretty cool.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
warning: LONG blog
i am still so happy to be home.
you know that feeling you get when you walk into your house for the first time after a long trip? that feeling as you plop down on your bed and take a deep breath to take in the familiar scents and sounds you take for granted any other day..i still have that feeling. and its been ten days since i have returned. needless to say, it was a long trip.
but it was great. i learned a lot. i experienced a lot. and i laughed a lot. (big surprise).
the trip consisted of eight days.
26th: flew in to Missouri, stayed til the 28th for my cousins military graduation
29th: flew to Tennessee, stayed til the 2nd to visit my friend Brett and his married best friends (Joe & Megan) in Kentucky.
five planes in a week. a lot of transferring. a lot of peanuts. a lot of reading. a lot of ipod. and a lot of beauty in the clouds while flying 30,000 feet above reality.
M I S S O U R I
my aunt pat feeling overjoyed from seeing her grandson after six months.
the arch it st.louis! it's so tall. like 630 feet.
the view is spectacular from the top, but the ride to the top is super shady.
it's a little cart enclosed by concrete walls sliding up an arc..scary.
my grandma and i being cute in st.louis.
this little boy that sat in front of me during my cousin's ceremony. i'm creepy and take pictures of cute little kids.
NAIDA. this amazing lady drove an hour from her house in missouri to
come have dinner with me by my hotel. we had a lovely dinner at the
cracker barrel (SO southern by the way).
my grandma and her sister getting pretty toasted off of their margaritas on our last night in missouri. OH AND SIDE NOTE: las palmas (where this picture was taken) is the greatest mexican food place. possibly of all time. and i don't even like mexican food that much. so good.
T E N N E S S E E
brett and myself in a field down the road from joe & megan's house.
we woke up at sunrise to so i could take pictures :)
i liked this one.
me being awkward.
megan and joe being in love.
megan and i getting ready to club it up in Nashville.
SO much fun.
what i learned:
the south is super cheap.
southern accents are darling. and i secretly wish that i had one.
i have no interest in living in a house that is 30 miles from a store.
and it feels really awesome to be loved by people you just met.
thanks for reading.
you know that feeling you get when you walk into your house for the first time after a long trip? that feeling as you plop down on your bed and take a deep breath to take in the familiar scents and sounds you take for granted any other day..i still have that feeling. and its been ten days since i have returned. needless to say, it was a long trip.
but it was great. i learned a lot. i experienced a lot. and i laughed a lot. (big surprise).
the trip consisted of eight days.
26th: flew in to Missouri, stayed til the 28th for my cousins military graduation
29th: flew to Tennessee, stayed til the 2nd to visit my friend Brett and his married best friends (Joe & Megan) in Kentucky.
five planes in a week. a lot of transferring. a lot of peanuts. a lot of reading. a lot of ipod. and a lot of beauty in the clouds while flying 30,000 feet above reality.
M I S S O U R I
my aunt pat feeling overjoyed from seeing her grandson after six months.
the arch it st.louis! it's so tall. like 630 feet.
the view is spectacular from the top, but the ride to the top is super shady.
it's a little cart enclosed by concrete walls sliding up an arc..scary.
my grandma and i being cute in st.louis.
this little boy that sat in front of me during my cousin's ceremony. i'm creepy and take pictures of cute little kids.
NAIDA. this amazing lady drove an hour from her house in missouri to
come have dinner with me by my hotel. we had a lovely dinner at the
cracker barrel (SO southern by the way).
my grandma and her sister getting pretty toasted off of their margaritas on our last night in missouri. OH AND SIDE NOTE: las palmas (where this picture was taken) is the greatest mexican food place. possibly of all time. and i don't even like mexican food that much. so good.
T E N N E S S E E
brett and myself in a field down the road from joe & megan's house.
we woke up at sunrise to so i could take pictures :)
i liked this one.
me being awkward.
megan and joe being in love.
megan and i getting ready to club it up in Nashville.
SO much fun.
what i learned:
the south is super cheap.
southern accents are darling. and i secretly wish that i had one.
i have no interest in living in a house that is 30 miles from a store.
and it feels really awesome to be loved by people you just met.
thanks for reading.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
no woman, no cry.
i am still not up to writing a blog about my trip.
but i can assure you it's coming soon.
however, i will tell you that there is nothing in the world like listening to bob marley in the car when you're alone. his music does not replace my favorite artists, it's just different. i feel at peace when i listen to his words. and i know he did too when he played them. i love that. i am aware that much of his peace came from exponential amounts of weed. but my peace comes from God. and its beautiful. my soul is nourished by this man's music, and it reminds of the peace we're striving for and the peace that's been given freely to us. how cool is that? so cool.
but it gets cooler.
He had this idea. It was kind of a virologist idea. He believed that you could cure racism and hate... literally cure it, by injecting music and love into people's lives. When he was scheduled to perform at a peace rally, a gunman came to his house and shot him down. Two days later he walked out on that stage and sang. When they asked him why - He said, "The people, who were trying to make this world worse... are not taking a day off. How can I? Light up the darkness."
he understood.
and i want to.
so i'll keep listening.
but i can assure you it's coming soon.
however, i will tell you that there is nothing in the world like listening to bob marley in the car when you're alone. his music does not replace my favorite artists, it's just different. i feel at peace when i listen to his words. and i know he did too when he played them. i love that. i am aware that much of his peace came from exponential amounts of weed. but my peace comes from God. and its beautiful. my soul is nourished by this man's music, and it reminds of the peace we're striving for and the peace that's been given freely to us. how cool is that? so cool.
but it gets cooler.
He had this idea. It was kind of a virologist idea. He believed that you could cure racism and hate... literally cure it, by injecting music and love into people's lives. When he was scheduled to perform at a peace rally, a gunman came to his house and shot him down. Two days later he walked out on that stage and sang. When they asked him why - He said, "The people, who were trying to make this world worse... are not taking a day off. How can I? Light up the darkness."
he understood.
and i want to.
so i'll keep listening.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
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